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Friday, August 10, 2012

Straight To Heaven

Feb 20.1912 - Aug 8.2012
I will miss Marie dearly 
and am so happy for the time we got to spend together. 
She was a caring and loving person 
and was the best mother & grandmother in the world. 
Even though she is gone 
her memory will live on in our hearts forever. 

Many of you know that my mother in-law 
{ who I have known since I am 11 yrs}
came to live in my home.
She died peacefully in her sleep 2 nights ago.

I have been living with my ex-husband and her for 5 years now.
With the sale of my home of 28 years
{the longest I have ever lived anywhere}


I am packing because I am selling the house....

- my daughter is moving out to her own place
{as it should be}

and then my ex-husband who has been a constant for me is going his own way.

It is the end of an era.

Like a sweater,
I feel my small universe unraveling all around me.
This is painful and frighting.
as all of my friends have told me,
it's G-d setting a new path for me.
I will get through this, but I must be permitted to morn the loss of it
before I can start anew.

I will take the unraveled yarn,
roll it up in a neat ball
and knit a new sweater when I get to Maine


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  1. My condolences I know how much you loved and cared for your Mother in Law Renee.
    So many changes my pet but I know you can and will get through them. My prayers are with you all the way. If my house sells I am coming to the USA next year wouldn't it be wonderful if we could get together?!!!!
    Big hugs Sweetheart and all my love xxx

    1. as we have discussed.....
      i will pick you up in portland maine!!!!

      i can't wait!
      xoxoxo to the moon

  2. I am so saddened to learn that Marie has passed away. You were such a kind person to take care of her.
    You have been through some major changes in the last year, and I keep you in my prayers. At some point, you will feel refreshed with these changes. Hang in there, Rene.
    Have a nice weekend.

    1. T,

      thank you
      you have always been right there with me.

  3. Letting go is painful, hard work, soul work. All the best to you as you continue on your journey. You are much braver than you think you are.

    1. thank you,
      some days i don't feel so brave.
      as always
      I've no choice but to be brave.
      i will DO THIS!!!

      hugs xoxo

  4. Renee It is sad she is gone, but she is not suffering anymore. You know How sorry I am.
    God is looking out for you now. Just focus on a new life in Maine.. Big hug, I wish there
    was something I could do. Love Mamma XXX

    1. the best thing you can do for me
      is to just listen
      be present
      and not try and fix me.

      it's not your job-it's mine
      i love you

  5. This year I saw my father look up, and then be with G*d.

    There are still very real things in life.

    Looking forward to knowing your mother-in-law better as time passes.

    Garden & Be Well, XO Tara

  6. Anonymous21:36

    peace to you. you are ready for this next adventure. best of luck talented lady.

  7. Holy cow Renee, how much shit did you throw at that fan!

    One thing I have learnt in my life is that everything happens for a reason. In a way you have been released. A door has opened, time to walk through to the next room and take your wonderful memories with you. We are listening to you my friend.

    Much love

    1. D,
      you couldn't have put it more succinctly!!!
      ....yet, i am still finding more shit to throw at it!!!!

      i needed the laugh for than you can imagine.
      love you xox

  8. oh dearest, so terribly sorry for this loss. you lovingly cared for her and heaven holds a special place for you.....sounds trite i know........

    love your analogy of the unraveled sweater. can't wait to come along on your new life.
    big hugs

  9. Oh Renée,
    I was so sorry to hear that your mother-inlaw had passed were the best daughter-in-law and were so kind to look after her the way you did. What a brilliant relationship you must have had with her and you were there until the end. You are a very special person Renée and now, this time of your life is going to be wonderful. A new start in a new place and who knows what the future may hold. Enjoy every minute of it , look forward and begin to enjoy this new adventure.
    Will be thinking of you. Much love. XXXX

  10. Renee what I have learned more and more about you my friend is that you ARE much, much stronger than you think. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that life in Maine will be a new adventure to treasure.

    We have some similarities in our stories; as my son and daughter have Not been able to be here for my. My daughter in law Robin has come over every other day this last year through all of my surgeries and recoveries. My 12 going on 16 yr old granddaughter Isabella has helped me and been by my side more than you can imagine. Plus my DIL has a mother and father who are both nearly handicapped; who she helps.

    There are angels round us and I am so grateful for my friends and family!

    Art by Karena
    2012 Artists Series

    1. karena
      send me your phone #
      i need to talk to you my love xoxoxo

  11. Oh Girl...I ache, and am excited for you. I think you have lived and learned more in these few years than you will ever be able to process.

    You is smart. You is kind. You is important.

    May that sweater keep you warm and dry and oh so cozy.

    Lotsa love,
    Your neighbor to the North.

  12. My sweet Nay Nay!
    You are a mighty warrior...your MIL was so blessed to have you as her caretaker. May she rest in peace. Wow...all the changes, all at once. Maybe it's better that was so there's one HUGE grieving process. I reiterate what Linda said, You is smart. You is kind. YOU IS IMPORTANT.
    You and I need to do a little knitting together!


  13. Renee,

    You are more than enough for many life changing events in life. You have gone through many many tests and have passed each one...because everything you do is the right "way, thing, and answer". My condolences to you and your family as you live, grieve, and accept this passage in time.

    Breathe deep and give thanks for the secure and the insecure parts in life. Seek the child within your soul to show you how to get to the next stepping stone. Go so far as to see the animated movie "Brave" even if you've seen it already...see it again...there are clues in it for everyone and you will get a lot out of it. Especially now with a heart that is in need...indeed.

    The only way through it is straight down the middle. When people part ways and a union has changed it feels like a death in multiple ways. But it's all good. You'll see that later.

    Many blessings to you my friend Renee. My prayers will continue for you and your family.



    1. bette

      these are words i needed.
      i am feeling frightened with all this change....
      i will see the movie.

  14. Dear Renee, I am so sorry to hear of all the sadness you have been going through...sometimes those clouds or bad air, as I like to refer to them just keep hanging around !! But it is over now, and you are on a new is how we deal with the challenges life presents to us that is the stuff of champions! I have been following along for some time time are a champion! Just the kindness and caring of looking after Marie is enough, that takes overwhelming courage and will be alright, N.xo

  15. My deepest sympathies over the passing of your dear relative. Wow... your plate continues to be filled with such life changing events. I am amazed you can still function, but I feel your strength and bravery through it all. You are amazing, and I pray for a break in the clouds and sun to shine on your life. I love the sweater poem, and that the yarn goes with you to Maine for a new sweater..You are a beautiful person and I wish you some peace in your journey.
    xo Nancy

    1. nance
      from your lips to g-ds ears.
      oh please!!!!


  16. Oh Renee I am so late in sending my condolences. You were so good to take care of her for so long.
    It's time for a new chapter where you will be in the lovely state of Maine.....where you've wanted to be for so long.




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About Renée Finberg

I have been in this business since the age of 22.

I love what I do and cannot imagine my life without Design.

Design Challenges are great.

And because of those challenges

I have imported fine antique pieces from Paris,

Designed and Manufactured Furniture,

Created Fantastic Window Treatments,

And solved all kinds of spatial & architectural issues

With my unique style.

If I can't find it, I create it.

My rooms would make excellent movie sets.

I am a visual, tactile and audio sensitive individual.

Creating is what I live for, not math, not spelling, not science.

Just Great Design.

Just imagine how it would be if each of us,

If only for a few hours of everyday,We could be in a space that is our very own.A place that is exactly the way we want it to be

Surrounded by all the things we wanted to see,

The atmosphere we wanted feel, smell and the sound we wanted to listen to.

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