‘About The Business Of Remaining Alone’

‘About the business of remaining alone’

It is a constant battle.

Well, not so constant….there isn’t always interest…

From my side or theirs.

‘This Business’  

The Battle I wage on myself-

To protect myself

It is so strong and loud inside me.

Most of my life I could just wash ‘THAT MAN OUT OF MY HAIR’

-then the break up came along.

It was 12 years ago that I was suckered into a relationship with the nicest NARCISSIST 

You would ever want to meet.

No.

REALLY.

The perfect’ Doctor Man’ for me.

The man I thought I was supposed to marry.

{but it was also his idea}

I finally let those tall stone walls down around me

and let the man in.  OOOOPS

I loved him completely. I never thought I would do that.

Or frankly….that I could do that.

After a year or so… things got strange.

That’s when the lying started.

And the crazy making began

– people lying to you….will make you crazy.

But to make a hideously long story shorter.

This man BROKE ME.

I will never be the same.

In the past 3 weeks

{Because I am networking -and networking is not my cup of tea}

I have met two men.

One was okay ,

But I had to get rid of him 

for reasons that would make a decent TV movie of the week

-that I don't want to star in.

there are no ridges left in my CD of this song
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And then comes along # 2

I could tell you all the details but the facts of the matter are……

He also is a narcissist …. Insanely charming, charismatic,

Sometimes handsome {this one was}

sexy, and made you feel like you were the only one in the room

By date two

I was beginning to be BUMMED OUT because I knew in my heart…..

This was the danger zone I was entering.

The perfect doctor that I described earlier

Made me doubt any and everything I said and did.

CRAZY MAKING

My self-esteem was flushed down the toilet on a daily basis.

Not to mention….I did not want to wake up.

Not Ever!!!

So, when I saw this image 

it brought back the whole ugly place I was living in!!

And yet it reminded me

….the only way I am safe…..is alone.

PS I do take responsibility for my own short comings, In these failed relationships.

I am better off alone. Mainly because I never get lonely.

What is this girl to do.?

Accept the way I am?

or

Take RISKS.

{i am too fragile emotionally}

I just don’t have what it takes for a relationship.

It is just too compromising.

Yea, that’s it.

Maybe I just don’t want to play by other peoples rules.

Translation: she doesn’t play well with others – IN A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS

So......What do you have to say to this post????
i am quite exposed.


xx Hugss and lots of them

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Emerald Green Interiors

Let's start of with 'I LOVE GREEN!'

-and this scene in a movie

I have used this pattern both on walls and floors

so many times that I have lost count.

The walls with the gold, black & white and definitely RICH.

My showroom was almost emerald green.

Yummy

I have a brilliant woman who can FAUX paint this to a T

Terrific

I adore this room.

Look how easily emerald works with ART.

IT DOES

and for many reasons.

This could be my bedroom for sure.

It would take me 20 years to tire of it.

That is IF I EVER tired of it.

I am almost sure I would not.

I have had emerald rooms in my life.....

the effect that the color has on me is too difficult to put into words.

How do you feel about EMERALD GREEN???

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About Renee Finberg

ABOUT RENEE FINBERG

I have been in this business since the age of 22.
I love what I do and cannot imagine my life without Design.
Design Challenges are great.
And because of those challenges
I have imported fine antique pieces from Paris,
Designed and Manufactured Furniture,
Created Fantastic Window Treatments,
And solved all kinds of spatial & architectural issues
With my unique style.
If I can't find it, I create it.
My rooms would make excellent movie sets.
I am a visual, tactile and audio sensitive individual.
Creating is what I live for, not math, not spelling, not science.
Just Great Design.
Just imagine how it would be if each of us,
If only for a few hours of everyday,
We could be in a space that is our very own.
A place that is exactly the way we want it to be
Surrounded by all the things we wanted to see,
The atmosphere we wanted feel, smell and the sound we wanted to listen to.
Private Paradise


Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her Blog of her Adventures in Design,Owner of 'The Trade' Interiors, ,Boca Raton,Palm Beach,Boca Raton Florida,All custom upholstery,case-goods,window treatments,Antiques, Accessories and Antique accessories, built-ins, and all built in seating, bedding and pillows,Roseta Santiago Works Of Art

Landscape - Mancor, Mallorca

Destination Spain

I had to post this for the landscaping and the pool.

This is too dreamy.

I love this area.

This is so divine....

Do you agree ?

This property belongs to a home for sale with 35 bedrooms.

It is a working property {INN} since 1971.

The owners want to sell it.

It has so many things on the property,

9 hole golf course, spa, etc, etc.

*link to view this property is at the bottom of this post.

This is the house.

Great pathways- Love Them!!

I have never been to Spain, 

and in the last 10 years I have really wanted to go.

I imagine that I will need one month to see everything I want to see.

The history alone in this country is truly amazing.

*The Moors created the first library on earth in Spain.

Who needs the Bahamas!?!

Look at this water!!

Would You go to Spain if you could?

Have you been?

Tell me about it.

* the property site is here

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Hat Hair

If it is Tuesday - It's my Monday

And it's HAT HAIR DAY.

No...I don't HAVE 'hat hair.'...

I wish!!

{then all I would have to do is wash it, and it would be back to normal}

I mean I NEED a hat.

This one suits me perfectly.

 I finally found a solution for my hair-do.

Hair Don't!!

I think I must have done this to myself simply for a distraction

from what is going on in my world!!??

Thank you for all the support.

xx

Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her Blog of her Adventures in Design,Owner of 'The Trade' Interiors, ,Boca Raton,Palm Beach,Boca Raton Florida,All custom upholstery,case-goods,window treatments,Antiques, Accessories and Antique accessories, built-ins, and all built in seating, bedding and pillows,Roseta Santiago Works Of Art, hat hair, hat hair, new hair cut trauma