"Who's That Lady??????"

This is what I hear most days from the woman that is my EX mother in-law.....
she is 95 years old.
and is getting senile.
"Who's that lady?"
"Who's that lady?''
"Who's that lady?"
"It's me ....Renee"


I take care of her with my ex-husband.
I do MOST  the care-taking. 
I am not supposed to,
but it has turned out that way lately.
It is not working out for me at all!

Weird I know,
but I have known both my ex-husband, and his mother since I was around 12 years old.

Plus, we have a child together.

But this morning was MY mother's day too, 
and as usual I woke up the same old, same old.....
* I was a candy-striper, but I don't remember it smelling so badly.

And remember...
I still have to show up for work today.
(looking great and smiling.... I am not supposed to have a care in the world when I get there either)
....and my ex is conveniently no-where to be found.
Don't worry girlfriends, there is no romance between us at all..........he has is own private life.
* see below

I just had a complete melt down...complete.

This is tough stuff.

I went outside and started screaming and cursing him.
I called him on his cell ...and of course he NEVER answers.
I left messages running the full spectrum.....

From outrage 
to telling him how hurt I was that he would continue
to do this to me without any concern for my mental well being..
(there is a reason we are divorced)
I was crying hard out of pure frustration

Needless to say....getting gorgeous for work was more than a challenge.

I have been edgy lately. And I think it is to be expected.
Ya' think I would be???

Believe me, you can't fix this for me.
I know some of you may want to but you can't.
I can't even fix it right now.
It is what it is. I am venting to my Bloggieville friends.
And thank g-d I have you!

She is an old Italian woman who raised 2 boys all by herself.
She worked two jobs to support them. And to my knowledge has never said a cross word to anyone.
I don't think she has even had a mean thought.
The alternative to me caring for her is THIS!
Right now...I just don't have the heart.


But I may be singing a different tune in 6 months if things don't change.


I am just trying to do the right thing.


I know I sound 'wacked'...I am not.
I swear.


and..Excuse me for being M.I.A. lately XXX's


sources:
http://crankymommyent.files.wordpress.com

Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her BLOG..... Interior Design, Palm Beach, Boca Raton,Ft.Lauderdale,Design Service, Window Treatments, TurnKey Interior Design Service,Paint selection, Floor-Plans,Online Interior Design, Design Center of The Americas, D.C.O.T.A. Care taking, Frustration, anger,

I was looking for KNOBS & PULLS

for a job I am working on and instead of finding what I was looking for......
I found these knobs and pulls. Some are quite interesting.
At the bottom of each picture is the source.  Here Goes;

As you must know you can put great knobs and pulls on ANYTHING,

and VIOLA you have something fabulous.

And I do mean fabulous.

I have a real thing for keys....

so these are faboo.

Get a load of these....they are sculptures.

And they are costly.

Recycled glass........they come in other colrways.

 

For all you Napoleon Lovers ...this 'BEE' is for you.

So so French.

This reminds me of 'Silence of the Lambs.'

.

I have used these on a jobs , but in brushed brass.

They are stupendous in my opinion

Classic - Forever!!!!

I am mental over the tortoise shell's pattern.

I don't know what it is......but I love it.

 

And of course this is my favorite. 

I have seen versions of this but NEVER done this well.

I would like to know which is your favorite.

And where would you use it?

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I Could Not Tell You .....

Where this image is from , Because I don't know.....

except it is from a 2004 saved file of mine.

It is the 10th pic in this particular file.

I love the ceiling and the colors.

Don't you?

I loved the idea of these fabulous partitions.

I wouldn't necessarily use them in the same way....

but I do love the intricate work in their design.

And because they are white or white washed ...

they do not 'come off' as heavy. 

Do you like them?

*Now here is the kicker....

I was tagged by Marley & Lockyer to do this post.

This is not mandatory....

and anyone who does not play along 

will not be banished from Bloggieville.

I have tagged 5 bloggers to post one fabulous 10th picture from a saved file.

Here goes:

Renae Moore Designs

Willow Decor

La Petite Gallery

Verdigris Vie

VT Interiors

XX's : )

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Fresh Flowers On My Desk

They are good for the soul.

Some of you know that my boss was extremely hard on me for about 6 months.....

and at around six months at my job I decided to start 

putting in a (very cool) vase on my desk fresh flowers every week. 

This is something I have always done.

So my routine is that on my first day (saturday) of the week 

I go to Whole Foods and pick up a bunch of flowers. I need them. 

When I am thinking, 

and literally 'glazed over' 

I stare at my gorgeous flowers 

rather that staring into space (which does nothing for me). 

In addition.....it reminds me that I am worthy.

I am 'gifting' myself.

I need to be surrounded by beauty to feel good about myself.

Just like Dressing well.

Feeding your self esteem is vital.

I started sneaking half of my bunch of flowers into my boss's office six months ago too.

She knows they are from me but we never discuss them.

Since I started working at my company 

I have come to the realization that my boss, 

Laura works harder than any woman I have ever worked with,

And she has 2 children - Need I say more?

I feel that she deserves them. 

I think fresh flowers , 

right about 20 " away from your face does something to you.

I am not completely sure what it is....but it feels so good.

Warm and fuzzy I guess.

Maybe it says to one's soul " Somebody cares" or in my case it says

" I care about me, I deserve these ."

There is a desk in the distance with a plant not fresh flowers.

But I had to post this image because I love it.

Everything about it!!!!!

BTW......

Things have been very nice at work. Laura has been kind and friendly.

Call it brown nosing if you choose to....my coworkers do.

hahahahahhaah

But it comes from the heart.

How do fresh flowers affect you???

Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her BLOG..... Interior Design, Palm Beach, Boca Raton,Ft.Lauderdale,Design Service, Window Treatments, TurnKey Interior Design Service,Paint selection, Floor-Plans,Online Interior Design, Design Center of The Americas, D.C.O.T.A., Fresh flowers on my desk
 

5,000 Gallons A Day

(did i say 5,000....it is more like 25,000 barrels a day as has been updated today)
But if you are drilling for oil in my ocean.....go away.
*Alabama Coast.

“Dr. Beach,” has been ranking America’s top ten beaches. In 2008 he named Caladesi the best beach in America. Fortunately, the Florida Park Service began acquiring the property on Caladesi Island in 1966, 
ensuring that it will be preserved in its natural state 


for generations to come. I don't think so......!!!




*beaches.uptake.com/blog/caladesi-island-flori...

Bradington Florida

The sugar sand beaches of the panhandle. ( it is really more like powdered sugar)
There are really no beaches like them.



Naples Florida

I hope these are G-d's foot prints in the sand.
We are going to need him!
And for certain....it will be nothing less than a miracle if this oil volcano under the sea can be stopped from flooding out into the ocean.
Let's face it, all the oceans run into each other.
What will happen to the porpoises ???
...and everything else in the ocean?
This oil rig F--k up is nothing less than a crime against humanity in my eyes.
This oil screw up will eventually creep all the way to the other side of Florida ( into the Atalntic) if they can't stop the oil from gushing into the Gulf.

Are you watching the news?
How do you feel about this tragedy?
Am I over-reacting????

sources:
best stuff.com
 tripatlas.com
 villakarl.com
floridacoastresorts.com
/media-cdn.tripadvisor.com

Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her BLOG..... Interior Design, Palm Beach, Boca Raton,Ft.Lauderdale,Design Service, Window Treatments, TurnKey Interior Design Service,Paint selection, Floor-Plans,Online Interior Design, Design Center of The Americas, D.C.O.T.A. , BP oil spill