Just Looking At This Makes Me Nervous

I will never be this woman.

Can you keep a secret ?

I will never be this woman either.

Lord knows my mother tried to make an organized person.

I rebelled. 

The first thing I did in my 1st apartment 

was to leave my clothes on the floor. 

I didn't even want to leave them on the floor, 

but I did

because I could!!!

This is not my laundry room!

Ahhhh....if only this were my laundry room 

and was this ORGANIZED.

This is

NEAT AS A PIN.

You guessed it.....

...not my office.

All this extreme tidiness and organization makes me feel nervous,

stressed out, and feeling a bit ' less than.'

Because I really do, I want to be organized.

    If this were someone else's desk,

and I were temped to borrow something.....

I would not.
I would be too freaked that I would not put it back
in the same exact spot.
Like I said.....
this much organization makes me nervous.
(and I guess it should)
''The obsessive-compulsive is at the extreme end of a continuum that begins with the person who, for instance, is scrupulously neat about his desk,'' said Blanche Freund, a psychologist at the Program for the Clinical Study of Anxiety Disorders at the Medical College of Pennsylvania, in Philadelphia." 

"Evidence from brain studies of people with severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, done by teams led by Dr. Rapoport and by Lewis Baxter, a psychiatrist at U.C.L.A., suggest the involvement of a brain circuit that runs between the frontal lobes and the basal ganglia, a series of structures at the base of the brain.

Those brain areas are involved in coordinating what the senses register with how the body responds to it. Dr. Rapoport believes they may have a role, for instance, in patients who doubt the evidence of their senses.

''These patients will turn a knob to check that a door is locked, then start to doubt it as they are going down the steps, and go back again and again to recheck,'' Dr. Rapoport said."

The hardest lessen I have ever learned in life 
was that I need to TRUST MY GUT.
And isn't trusting your senses trusting your gut?

Don't get me wrong I am not a disorganized pig.

I am very CLEAN ( I promise ).

I just am someone who makes piles.

And when the pile is really old.......it gets tossed.

I mean how important can it be if I haven't  needed anything in the pile?

And trust me...........I know my piles!

And approximately what is in them.

I am very organized in that way. LOL

Can most of us agree

that most of us are not this neat?

Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder (OCPD) 

is a personality disorder which involves an obsession with perfection, rules, and organization. People with OCPD may feel anxious when they perceive that things are not right. This can lead to routines and rules for ways of doing things, whether for themselves or their families.

I was already working on this post

when one of my best friends came over to have coffee and return something.

We have both been busy so we were catching up.

Her boyfriend ( who she lives with)

was just taken to a mental health facility

  ( nut house, loony bin, funny farm ).

He is the most annoyingly rigid,

and organized person within a 5 mile radius of where I live (maybe).

He is about 56 or so............

he just started not sleeping at night....

and continued  to be his uptight controlling self.

Still he was constantly 'directing the show' and anybody else's 'show'

that would listen.

*Ever meet someone who always knew the RIGHT WAY

to do something or the RIGHT ANSWER to a question?

Always.

Everything and Anything.

You can't tell them anything.

They already know everything.....

and if they don't know.....they bullshit their way through.

( and I don't like that )

Well, that is him.

*Extreme control of your environment through organization

of things (or trying to control the people around you)

is usually because you feel out of control.

He's out of control alright.
He's on his way to a very controlled environment right now,
which should have him feeling out of control.
But I guess that's their plan ( at the 'facility').
What ever issues he has, that feeling of fear,
being out of control, just being controlled by others
should bring all his internal garbage right to the surface.
I feel so sorry for him,
and my dear friend.
We are all very fragile
I know you are wondering if my 'dear friend ' reads my blog,
she says she does....I know she doesn't.
And I guess this will confirm it.
It is okay either way. I have said all this to her before his psychic break.
I had a feeling ...and was worried about her being in the relationship.

Last but not least,

this picture was titled 

" command  center."

( Scary Stuff )

Do you know someone 

who is wound really tight? ( besides me)

Are you neat as a pin?

Renee Finberg 'TELLS ALL' in her BLOG.....

credits: NYT  , and here


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