There is some time in a person’s life when they want to run away.
Things are too difficult or they are just too overwhelmed.
That’s how I am feeling today.
I might NOT feel this way tomorrow
But
I do right now.
My dearest friend from 30 years ago came to visit me.
{i cried like a baby for an hour after she left}
She lived in an apartment one floor below me in my building in NYC.
She was a gorgeous model and actress.
She was also my maid of honor when I married.
She has been living in Naples Fla. For 2 years. I found her on face book.
{well it is good for something} And she had been trying to find me through
the newspapers. She didn’t know my married name…..but I always kept my maiden name.
she didn’t know.
It was so warm and fuzzy to see her.
But it has been 30 YEARS.
She is so brilliant, brave and funny……..
I don’t know what it was but it stirred up all sorts of things in my head and heart.
She had more hilarious stories that had me on the floor
additionally they often seemed sad. And were. I love her. So they were sad to me.
I worried for her.
I am worried for me.
These are hard times for a woman alone.
She would love this room and read every book in it.
And here we could plane our adventures for the day
over cafe and cakes.
I just wish all would work out with my business,
I want to have a place for her.
I have a lousy time of it making new friends……
It is always the OLD PALS that I treasure & trust.
So this is where I want to run to !
I am by nature, melancholy.....
I need to figure all of this BIG STUFF out!!
